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Welcome to the. Hey, everybody, welcome to group therapy. I'm Kaitlyn Bristowee here with Sidney Quinn, who is visiting for a little while, and you got to sit in on the Lauryn Gray podcast, who twelve-year-old me was screaming, I think nine year old, you owe one hundred and twelve and twelve, but you love Lauryn Gray from Ticktalk. I love is called the tick tock queen. And she is very a fascinating girl because at 22, I don't think I had the perspective that she does. But she's been through a lot and she went through a lot of bullying and ended up doing home schooling and then became famous on Tik Tok. She's also got she was first on musically. Musically, she was on Tik Tok. She got famous on music and she has 23 million followers on Instagram. I looked at her TikTok was like fifty three point eight, fifty three point eight million followers. That is huge. I talked to her about the responsibility of that and this new upcoming movie that she's in. Oh my god, I'm so excited. So it's basically like not a spinoff, but like the humor and setting of Superbad, which is one of my favorite movies, and she's got a really big role in it. So it was really interesting to talk to her and I enjoyed it. Did you? I really enjoy. OK? How old are you? I'm 22, 22. OK, so my niece is 16. She's here with us today. What year were you born? Twenty seven. Oh, like scary. I'm eighty five guys. OK? When I hear anyone born in the 2000s, I'm like, what? Like the other day, I thought this guy was so hot and I looked him up and it was like nineteen ninety nine. I was like, Up. No, yeah, yeah. I'm starting to feel about a little bit. 22 I was in. I was I just feel that way. 20 I did a meet and greet the other day and they were like, You know, I don't know anyone here, like any of the new up and coming people like I only knew you and I was like, That's great. That's yeah. Well, buckle up. It's I was The Bachelorette nine years ago, and I'm now at the phase where people are like, Oh my gosh, my mom loves you. I'm like, Oh my God, that's such a compliment, though. Sure. What do you? The affections of the moms is like, that's that's true. There's a lot of moms out there that don't like me. Sidney and I were actually laughing so hard going through my deal, funny going through her DMs because, well, it's funny and it's sad because this one woman who shall not be named because she probably listens to this podcast starts telling me about how my ex's new girlfriend is much prettier than me and better than me and all these things. And honestly, it didn't even faze me. I went, I'm not going to compare myself to my ex's new girlfriend. I do think she's pretty. She's successful. She's. What does that mean that doesn't take away from me? And it was just interesting to watch this and talk about this with Sydney, because six years old, you know, you go through phases of life when people are mean and you just realize that at any age, I'm sure Sydney. Have you experienced bullying? Yeah, yeah. You've experienced bullying, you've experienced bullying. And it's like, obviously, I'm not making an excuse for it because it's not OK. It's just like it says everything about these people, like it's we could do whatever the heck we want, and they'll find reasons. And once I had an honest conversation with her, she was like, You know what? I think I'm just worried about you, kids, and I'll talk to her. Yeah, and I went, worrying is one thing, and that's kind. You can worry about me, but you don't need to compare me to another woman, and you don't need to tell me that I messed up in my life by letting something go. You don't know me. It's actually one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself. And you're so brave. You're a mother. You're a mother. Looks like you're about 65 to 70. And like, Shame on you. Yeah. And that's yeah. Shame on you. So I know you've experienced a lot of bullying. Mm-Hmm. I think we talked about it a little bit last time, which is funny because we both didn't remember that you were on this podcast. Yeah, 2020. Well, I say 2024 is on drugs. 2020 was just a whole like a blackout year. I don't remember that time period. I don't remember it. I don't remember what I was thinking. I don't know where I was. I feel like we were all just numb, trying to get through like the scariest time of life and that we all just blacked it out. And that's what we like to call trauma. Yeah, actually, I feel that way. I think I forget everything like I remember this year. But then like anything that happened before that, I'm like, Might not happen, actually. Right? Yeah. What do you feel like when we were going through 2020 and 2021 and all these bad things kept happening and the world was just so scary? I got to a place where I was like, That fan right there could start talking to me and I could realise that fans are aliens. And I'd be like, Probably. Yeah, like, nothing fazed me. Yeah. Do you feel like it toughened you up and kind of made you like fearless in life? Or did you did it make you fragile? I think it made me care less. Yeah, cool. Like, I just kind of like, you know, yeah, things happen. Yeah, yeah, things happen. I've been telling Sydney, you got to just roll with the punches at this point. Like, Yeah, you know, the s**tty things happen and scary things happen and we're all just going to get. Through it together, to listen to the to the universe is what I've been learning recently, it's like if there are things coming at you and you're like, This is a lot is happening right now. Maybe take a step back. Oh, you know, you're lucky. You learn that at 22, I'm learning that. Thirty nine, I'm still learning it. I don't. I don't want to believe it, but I know it's true. It is true. It's and I always say that women's intuition is really bananas. Like if we really it's hard to get quiet these days with social media, but if you really get quiet and listen to your body, it'll tell you what's right and wrong. Yeah, it really will. Yeah. So you started musically, ticktalk at what 2019 or were you on it before that? And that's just when it blew up was around 2019 2020. It started blowing up around 2017 17 13. Oh my gosh, yeah. How do you handle that level of attention at 13? Not well, yeah. Yeah, well, but at the same time, I was really looking for that. Yeah, like I needed not fame or anything like that, but I was so lonely and it was very, I found like a community there. So it was good in that regard. Obviously, once things get bigger and bigger, there's more and more to be careful about and more that's going to hurt your feelings. Yeah, but at the time, especially in the very beginning, it was like perfect really fell into my lap. It happened by accident. And then all of these people cared about me. I don't think that's by accident. I don't either. OK, I so crazy. Crazy story. My mom, when I was 12, so right before all of this happened, we were I remember exactly where we were. We were going down a hill by my house and we were driving somewhere. And my mom is like, she's tapped in. I don't know what you tapped into. Yeah, but she just knows things and she's really good at manifesting things. Yeah, and she like, I mean, she was like out of nowhere. She was like, You're going to be famous. And I was like, No, no, I don't like that. No, I don't want people in my business, and my mom is like, I don't know, really going to happen. And I was like, Oh, no, that's the last thing I want. And then like, literally six months later, everything started to spiral, so you didn't want it. And then when it happened, you were like, Wait, this is amazing. Yeah. And I was like, in a way, it was kind of exactly what I needed. I. There was nothing at school that made me feel whole. I always felt like something was missing and I didn't make friends easily. I actually had quite the opposite experience. So, yeah, I don't know. Once that happened, things started to make sense a little more. What do you think that is in high school, like me was middle school. I never made it to high school. Oh, middle school. I was homeschooled in high school. Oh, amazing. Well, probably not amazing. Because it was probably because you were getting bullied. Yeah, I left school initially because of that while I left school twice. I left school in the fifth grade because I was bullied for I was really ugly. It was a really, really ugly. And people thought I was like albino and they were afraid of me because I was so blond guy. So that was like I left school after that and I went back and watch like I would finish my school work. I was doing online school. I would finish super fast and then I would go online and watch makeup tutorials. Yeah. And I learned how to do makeup while I was homeschooled. And then in seventh grade, I told my mom, it's like, I want to go back because I felt more confident. So I knew how to do my hair and do eye makeup. And so I went back and then the whole musically TikTok thing started and I ended up leaving again because I was bullied for the opposite reason. See, it doesn't matter. You are a beautiful person on the inside and out, and you will get bullied for your outside appearance and your inside appearance. Because and I always say this people are afraid of a bright light and you are a bright light. Sydney is a bright light, and people don't know how to deal with that if they have their own inner darkness and it's sad for them. But obviously you can't process that as a young woman. And I can't imagine like what Sydney's experiences now, especially because the internet was sort of it was on on the rise. I guess when I was in middle school, but now it's like everything, so I can't imagine. What is your experience so bad? Tell, tell us why. Why I got bullied. No, look why the internet? Well, sure. But why is the internet so bad right now? Everything just gets shared so easily and like every time like something happens, someone texts the other person and it just goes everywhere and everyone knows what everyone's business. And it probably blows up into something that isn't true. And then a whole bunch of rumors start. And why are people mean to you? Yeah, because I'm short. Because you're short, please. Because you're short. Yeah, that's absurd. They make fun of you because you're short and they say, I'm fat. Oh, that's absurd. Don't listen to that. OK, well, I will say my heart like I would have cried right now, but I that's a confidence. You have such. I don't even care. Well, you care a little bit like it hurts, but you. You don't let it define you. Yeah, because you were very confident. Hmm. And you know that people say things from an insecure place, so 100 percent good and you witness it with your auntie who's thirty nine and like, just like trying to live my truth and people like, I hate you and I'm like, So does that? Do you think it helps you to watch me get bullied? I don't know. I mean, I can't believe I know the right answer to that one. What do you say to people said when they say things like that to you? Nothing. It's over social media and no one says anything to their face. And you know, everyone's too scared to say it to their face. Yeah, it's like it's like a little drug for people where it makes them feel better in the moment to bring you down. But then they go to sleep at night and probably like, I'm a dick. Also, this is something that I. Started learning. I would say after I turned like 20, but I've talked to you for maybe five minutes and I promise you you're smarter than all of those people and that goes such a long way. Like, if anything, like at the end of the day, I don't look like this. I take off my makeup. I look like a rat. I know and I get into bed and I sit in my nest and I sit happy knowing that I was smarter than everyone that ever made me feel terrible. And like, you don't realize the value of that when there's things like popularity and look certain followers in the mix. But like your intelligence and the way that your brain works are so much more valuable. Oh, it really is. She is the kindest heart, and you're so you're just such a lovely human. And that's literally I don't even remember high school. Like, it doesn't matter. I leave high school well or send me to I don't even go. I'm like, Yeah, you should get home schooled in your last year said. That sounds kind of nice. My best friend, she she left school. I think her senior year, sophomore year, something she left school on and her and I became friends. But it was the same thing. Like, yeah, girls being evil and she she just left. And for her, that was like the right thing. And she's, you know, one of the kindest, nicest, most amazing people I know. And yeah, people prey on that too. Oh my gosh, they'll print anything. Let me guess your medicine cabinet is crammed with stuff that doesn't work. You're still having trouble sleeping and still dealing with pain. Stress, constant companion. I was right there with you, so I decided to clear out my cabinet and hit the old reset button on my health with CBD from CBD Distillery. And let me tell you. 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Do you ever think about it like that, like just football fields and stadiums and stadiums and stadiums and hundreds of stadiums of people just watching you? Or did I just freak you out? Oh, I'm sorry, dude. I mean, I thought about it that way, for sure. But it doesn't. It doesn't feel that way. Do you feel like a responsibility or are you really just in your own lane of like, this is what I do on Instagram. I don't have to get into politics. I have to get into religion. I have to share this aspect of my life. Do people try and like, tell you you've got a responsibility because you've got this platform? Yes. Yeah. But my my responsibility to for myself has always been to young girls. Yeah. And to me, younger people. So you know what I mean? Like, because there's a lot of things that I don't know and I don't want to pretend to know. Yeah, or try to, like, be holier than thou on. But one thing I do have experience in is being a really sad, lonely, isolated 13 year old. Yeah, and all of my experiences through, you know, between 13 to now. I do know that and I do feel like I have a place in that, and that's something that I'm really confident in. And so, yes, I feel a responsibility in a sense, and it's not even to like be I have to be a role model. You know what, I yeah, because because you just want to be you. Yes. And kids aren't dumb. Like, like, I'm not perfect. Yeah. But if there is even like a little something that I can say that sticks with someone like Sydney who's like in school and dealing with, yeah, those kind of people, then that's where my purpose is and all of it. Gosh, so I love. I love the younger generation these days. Me, too, and I just I think that it's so like the internet can be so great. Yeah, the internet can be so terrible. And I had I mean, my like, I said, my experience was on like the precipice of it becoming what it is now. But even at that time, I had people tweeting about me and posting about me and threatening to jump me on Snapchat and all of these things. I had to have three months to get threatened, girl 13. And they're never going to do it right? No, no, no. But like that could be reported to the police. Yes, but no one. No one does, because it's just it's just school and it's, you know. Yeah, and you don't. You also don't want to be the person that's making it a bigger scene or making it a bigger deal than it has to be. Oh, I don't like that, though. I'm like, Is your voice stand up for yourself? Yeah. I mean, my mom was showing up at people's houses. My mom didn't carry my mom showing up to the school like once a week. My mom was showing up to people's houses, plus your mom. But I was like, Oh, please, no, because it's you just want to draw attention to yourself and you kind of want to, like, blend into the background. But when you're older knowing what you know, yeah, it's so easy to be like, who cares? Yeah, well, that's I mean, I guess that is just part of the journey of life. You just have to go through these things, learn the hard way. The the way we all learn lessons is through the thick mud. Yeah, you can't get around it. You just got to go through it. And then we all like are so much stronger and wiser and better for it. So how do you compare yourself now like the person you are on social media now in your life, now outside of social media to when you were 13, 14, 15 going through all this crazy stuff? I definitely think I'm more resilient, but I still have a lot of lingering feelings. Yeah. And even my experiences through my teenage years up until now have been so trying. It's like, I feel like if if I were, if I were meant to break by now, I would have happened. So I do feel like I've gotten stronger, but there's still that part of me that doesn't really value myself, truly. And that's something that I've been trying to work on. Yeah. It's a lifelong, yeah, project. Yeah, by the way. But I put myself in situations and I'm like, Dude, everyone's telling you, you're better than this. Yeah, and it's hard for me to see it. So I think there's both sides of the coin on one side. I do think I'm stronger when it comes to the internet. There's not a lot that can affect me, but in my personal life, I just feel like I don't value myself as much as I probably should. And are you working on that? Like, what do you do for your mental health? Oh, I'm trying. I mean, I don't even know how, where to start. A lot of the time, I mean, for me, I've tried to build better relationships with the people around me, lean on people more because that's something that I feel like in the past. I've felt we could doing is like reaching out to friends and asking them to hang out or whatever because you just feel like a burden. Yeah, especially because like I like two groups of best friends and one group, they're a couple. They've been dating for almost 10 years. My other best friends have been dating for seven. Wow. And then there's me, and then there's me. Right, right. Like thirty nine. And I'm like, how people been together for 10 years and I'm over here just struggling to find them. Yeah. So I'm the person that's like, Hey, guys, can I watch a movie with you? Yeah, actually, we planned a date tonight, but maybe tomorrow. Yeah. So you're not dating? No, not. Not currently. Not anymore. Oh, shoot. But we're happy about. I think so. I think it's I think it'll end up being for the best. Yeah, it's just I'm in that delicate like a phase right now. I feel bad, but sometimes walking away is the strongest thing you can do for yourself. So who stops for that? Snaps that? Yeah. Yeah, that's I feel that. And it's hard when you're like, you don't really, truly believe that you deserve better. Yeah. But I just kind of have to take everyone else's word for it and let it do its thing and take their word. But also, like I said, get quiet with yourself and write out, do you have a journal? Yes. And I have like kind of imposter syndrome when I do. Interesting. I don't know if anyone else has ever experienced this or if I'm just really, like, probably messed up a little bit. But when I start journaling and I start like writing stuff out, I feel so detached and I'm like, interesting. I feel like I'm reading about someone else's life and I'm like, No, surely not. Interesting. Yeah. I don't know. I get like imposter syndrome and oh my God, my brain. Sometimes this is where I wish I was a therapist because I'm like, I I want to know what that means. Yeah, me too. I'm it's probably something I really got. But then I actually did recently start talking to a therapist. This is something that I've been like super on the fence about because I was like, I don't know, Oh my God, I don't feel ready to unpack things. And then I just start talking. And she didn't get a word in. Yeah, probably the first like three sessions. Yeah. And I need to see her again. But oh my gosh, therapy has changed my life. I love therapy. Yeah. Sid goes to therapy. I go to therapy. We highly recommend. Yeah, it really is. It's not even if you like, it's like you said you just go in and all of a sudden you're talking and they don't. And sometimes that alone can help you just getting out your thoughts. That's why I like journaling. It's just getting out your thoughts and like going back to you. Think it's the right thing and your friends are telling you this, but I think, you know in your gut. Yeah, it's the right thing. Yeah, for sure. OK. Yeah, I think I'm taking small steps. Big changes happen in the micro shifts. Yeah, big, big things happen over time in the small steps. So you just keep taking those small steps and then like, life goes by so fast. I never believed my parents when they said that, and then my 30s passed and I was like, Oh, I get it. And when I look back on my thirties, all the small changes have led me to where I am. And I'm like, even though I seem like a complete disaster to certain people online, I'm actually in the best place I've ever been. And in every way, I just, yeah, I mean, I'm still hot mess and I'm still emotional and I'm still figuring things out, and I still have wild insecurities and I still, you know, all the things. But I like I said, this was Jared Freedom. Like, I'm just so confidently insecure and everyone, everyone is. Yeah, I don't just got to lean in believe that anyone's truly, completely secure. Now, if you are, I'd love to meet you. No, you wouldn't love to meet them. That's called c**ky and delusional. Like a little scary. 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I want to know what the transition you were literally called the tick tock queen, and now you're into singing and acting and we'll get into that acting. That's huge this role that you have. What is the transition been like for you? Do you love it? Are you like because tick tock is obviously fun, but are you like, OK, then what's next? Like, what's more for me? How's that been? I mean, I feel like people are always shocked when content creators step out of the box and try different forms of, you know, more traditional media. Yeah, but I I've explained it this way a couple of times. If someone's consistently putting themselves out in front of an audience, that's just someone who loves performing. And to me, it's like, naturally, that person's going to want to try other things. And for me, like I started before social media, I was doing cheerleading and I was doing competitive whatever shows. And then I started social media and it's I feel like it's kind of the natural trajectory of someone who really loves performing. And I mean, it hasn't been simple. You have more to prove. Yeah, of course. Because of preconceptions. Yeah, but yeah, that's true. That being said, I I've been more selective. I've been I've had to work harder, which for me, I think is a good thing because I love a challenge. Yeah. And it's been it's been great, honestly. And like even the music industry is fun. I've had bumps there, of course. Yeah. Oh, I heard the music industry is rough, is rougher. That's I mean, I've talked about it so much, but it's just you got to be a different kind of strong. Yeah, so get yourself through that. But beyond that, I think it's just the natural sort of evolution of someone who really, really wants to perform. Yeah, that's cool. I mean, it takes a lot of confidence and bravery to like, step outside a comfort zone and accept a challenge. I feel like that's huge. I hope you give yourself. I hear you and I just go, Give yourself credit. I can give you some. How you're doing big things in your life. The day that I give myself credit, though, is the day that I get complacent. No, and I just I've kind of always thrived off of being like, No, keep going. OK, I'm the same way, but I've had to like, really work on sitting back and like appreciating and like soaking in the winds that I've had over my years. Yeah, instead of being like, OK, but what else could I do? Like, Yeah, you really have to do that. It's a practice. Yeah. And I think for me, it's a kind of a balance of removing myself from L.A. for a little bit. I go back to Pennsylvania and I have my moments there, and I will stay there for a couple of weeks at a time. And that's been super helpful and just kind of being like, OK, that was a good run. Let's let's regroup. Yeah, but it's hard when it's you because I'm so good at celebrating other people. But when it comes to myself, like I don't want to, I don't want to look at that. Have you done personality tests before? Which one, anyway? What's that? She's such a two. I want you to take a personality. Does I'm just that you're you sound like the helper or like the I feel like I don't know. No, I'm just labeling you as a two, but I want you to take it just because it's I love learning everything I can about myself. I want to know my birth chart. I want to know my personality tests. I want to know everything that I can. I want to get to know myself. So do the new Gram test and then let me know. Well, I think the most telling thing about me is like. But a lot of people are going to roll their eyes right now, but I'm an Aries, yeah, but I'm a double cancer, so I had little emotional cancer. Yeah. And then my my son is Aries, but I actually like one of the personality tests I've done because I also love to dissect myself. Yeah. Told me that I was like avoidant, which like tracks. Yeah, it's not as interesting. But like, I want to know if I'm mature. Yeah, I'm curious. I'm where do I like what I do, though? Any Graham-Cumming I think? I don't know. I don't know. I want to do Sydney's. Have you ever done a personality test that haven't? We should do it after this week? Yes. What does your Capricorn, aren't you? Yeah. Oh, I love you too, actually. I love it. Yeah. You're so stable. Well, see like to filter at your stable, but with hormones. So that makes sense. That's that's. Do you get mad when I talk about your hormones all day? Oh, I'm sorry. OK, so let's talk about you. Have this a big character you're playing in? Is it a movie or a show movie? It's a movie. OK, it's called in-coming. And what attracted you to this role? Tell us all about it, because this is song I want to know. Yeah, we're very excited about this. Oh, OK, couple of things. Yeah, yeah. So this is my first movie I've ever been a part of, and there's been, of course, there's been roles that have been that have come in, and I was really excited about this one because it was the first one that I auditioned for that seemed out of the ordinary. For me, it seemed like sort of left field, something people wouldn't expect, and the script was hilarious. And I wanted it so bad because you get offered a lot of roles, especially when you have like the followers in the numbers that people just want you there for the sake of having you there to bring in whatever audience you have pre-existing. But I wanted something that I had to work for and win, and I did so many auditions, I did self tapes, I went in person and read with the shirt and brothers in person. It's very like Superbad, ASC humor, that raunchy. Yeah, out there. And my role was very, as Helen likes to say, it was very humanizing. Oh, I love that. And I don't think people will be expecting what where it goes for me specifically. Yeah, but I watched the movie so many times now, and I love it. I think it's hilarious. Oh my god, I'm so excited to watch. Yeah, we're so excited. And you've already filmed it. Yeah. When does it come out? It comes out in August and August. OK, so will it be in theaters? I know it's coming out on Netflix. Oh, even better, even better deals there, unlike theatres are a dying breed. Put that s**t on Netflix. Oh my gosh, that's incredible. Yeah. Netflix. Yeah, imagine being on a like that. Be so cool. I mean, I am on Amazon Prime. Back in the day, if you want to search for Bachelorette Season 11, girl, that is Hulu Dancing With the Stars, but Netflix is like the go out Dancing with the Stars. I want you to brag or anything. Yeah, that's so cool. They're so cool. Yes, I'll tell you what, nothing made me feel cooler than winning that show. I was like, I am cool. You were like, Yes, I am a star and you are dancing with me now and I am a miserable champ. No, it's crazy because I grew up dancing my whole life and then I like, couldn't make it as a dancer because I wasn't good enough. So it's like the full circle moment where I'm like, Oh, you made it? I was like in my thirties and I was like, I just won the mirror ball. I am a dancer. There you go. Yeah, it was amazing. Sometimes the validation comes later. OK? So you said a little bit. It's like the raunchy kind of pulling from Superbad inspiration funny comedy, which was like one of the most iconic movies of all time. It's like I quote that movie all the time. Is there anything like behind the scenes that you could talk about? Like, did you have a little crush on? Whenever I was in musical theater, I always had a crush on, like the most unexpected human. I'd like hear him sing a bar and I'd be like, Wait, what Michael? Topping his name? I didn't see that one coming. Well, I. So for most of the time, I was only on set with two of the boys. Yeah, and they were like 15. Oh, oh no. No. But they were really cool, and I spent a lot of time with them, obviously. So we were good friends and I enjoyed seeing I actually had a friend in the movie. His name is Thomas Babushka, and I didn't really register that he was in the movie until I saw him on one of the last days of filming. And we were like, Really? Yeah. What a dick. Yeah, I was like, we were interested. That's so funny. Yes. And you're like a big role in this. Yeah, yeah. Give yourself the damn credit woman. Yeah. Your big role in this? Yeah. And you worked hard to get there. What would your dream role be moving forward in the acting world? I don't know. I really, really love like what I really loved about this is that it was unpredictable and it wasn't. I wasn't just playing like the popular girl. Yeah, yeah. So gorgeous. Yeah, there was. More depth to the character. 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And when the documentary came out, you're like, I'm glad this is getting exposed or you just saw it come out and you're like, What the hell? I had no idea. I don't. I didn't even know about. I didn't know if any of them until. And I mean, I always I don't think I did. Yeah, the influencer sphere has gotten so big and there's always messed up. Yes. Yes. That like, it was really sad. It wasn't surprising, necessarily. I see crazy stuff all the time. But I didn't know anyone personally. OK, God, I watched it and I was like, This is I had two thoughts of it. One, I was like, I the family doing this to the daughter. I'm like, This feels like you're ruining your relationship with her even more because she seems quite happy. But also, I want people to be exposed if they're doing something wrong. So it was interesting to watch. But I just like, remember, I don't know if you're ever part of the there's like a tick tock house for you weren't part of that. OK, gosh, yeah, I can't imagine you're crazy. Yeah, those were like people. I don't have the mental stamina for that. No. Then these kids were driving like Ferraris and living in this house at the age of the hype house. One of the hype house. Yeah, that's it. Yeah. Mm-Hmm. OK, so who's your favorite person to follow on TikTok? I don't know, because I just kind of like, scroll. Yeah, OK, so what's your favorite kind of content to consume on TikTok? My algorithm is really not normal. I don't think it's a lot of like carousel like type. Oh, really? Swipe memes? Oh, stuff like that. I don't know. I try not to scroll too much good for you because then I like I've been reading more or less. Yes and no, because I think reading depending on what you're reading. For me, it's like the same mindless like dog. Like, I'm reading the book and it's like the most intense part of it. I'm just like, tapped in. Yeah. So to me, it's like the same mindless like activity, but at least I'm learning new words. That's what I think. That's not like Skippy, whatever. Yeah, I guess it's like actual words. When I read books, I'm like, at least my vocabulary is probably growing a bit. Yeah, yeah. And I like Google words when I don't know them. So that's but I will say Tik Tok inspires me to be a little funnier. Yeah. Like, I'm like, Oh, oh, so it's very humbling. So I'm like, I'm not that funny. So I think I'm so funny. And then I watch TikTok. I'm like, Not really. I like Britney, bro. Ski a lot. OK. That is it. I first saw her page. She has a podcast. She was like the kombucha meme. Yes. Yes. Oh my god, I'm obsessed. I love her. I think she's really funny. She's so funny. I don't know. I try not to watch like two too many people that are similar to me because then I start getting a little bit going and that's what I do. That's why I don't listen to podcasts. Yeah, because I started comparing and you're like, Oh my God, this person, so much more interesting. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I do that all the time. I do it all the time. God, if there wasn't a world of social media, would we still be comparing ourselves so much to so many other people? Yes. OK, I watch Bridgerton. I watched the first season. OK, I'm on the first season right now. I just actually just started the second season on my drive here. I was like listening to it. Amazing, like, that's my podcast. Yeah. But even then they're like, You know, Daphne is the diamond of the season, and all the girls are like, Oh, you know, it's the same vibe. It's true. There's always someone to compare yourself to God. Even when I was a kid, I was comparing myself to my sisters at school. Oh, that's me in the dance studio. I just there's always ways to compare yourself and be like, I'm not good enough and whatever, but then everyone else is like, You're so dope. Yeah, I know we got to. We got to hype ourselves up the way a best friend would to us. Yeah, and I have. Why do you not want to be our own best friends? I don't know. I don't know if I could handle being friends with myself. I think about this. I was so blessed to not have a twin. Yeah, I've said that before about myself. I would be the evil twin too, and I would. I know that I would. I would be so competitive. My ego would be too big, and I would be like, Yeah, there can't be two of me. Yeah, exactly. Hopefully on that. What upcoming projects do you have besides a huge show on Netflix? What are you excited about right now? Oh, well, I'm starting music again. Amazing. What's your favorite solo music? Everything. Really, I listen to everything, and a lot of people don't take me seriously when I say that. But like from heavy metal to country to like Taylor Swift, everything in between, it's me I listen to. Yeah, right now I've been listening to the acoustic version of I Took a Pill in a Baeza by Mike Posner and Credible. I discovered that recently because I'm going to Ibiza. Oh, and I was listening to the song and then I was like, Oh, the song? Ouch. Yeah, yeah, I got a personal attack there, and I was like, Yeah, ouch. Add to playlist. Yeah. It's out that I've been listening to a lot. Also, Helen showed me this cover from the band Michael Sarah Palin of If It Makes You Happy by Sheryl Crow and it's like, oh, like rock version of that song and it's so sick. OK, I'm going to listen that I think you'll like it. I love you. Strike me as a woman with pace. He thank you. You wouldn't tell by my outfit together. I'm wearing boxer to the people in the audience. She's got taste. I like to think so, but I always feel like I'm like, Am I one of those people? That's just thirty nine now where I go, like, I'm just trying too hard to keep up with the young folk. No, OK, thank God. Not that. Like, you need more than 23 million followers, but working people find you. I don't even know my look at Lauren. Lauren Gray summer in its lower end, yes. And is the gray with it? A Yes? Yes, OK, that's important. No one ever gets that right. Really? Yeah, thank you. I do my research. Like with your Instagram page, do you ever like what you promote the Netflix show or do you strictly stick to your niche of content? No, I post everything. OK, cool. Yeah. So you post this podcast? Cool. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, of course. Of course. Like, I could really use those views. Thank you so much for coming on, and I'm so excited. Sydney and I are going to. We should face time and watch the movie together. We should. You shed or just fly me out to come see you that that works too. Okay, I'll do that, too. So when when we're watching the movie, what can we expect? It's crazy. It's there's a lot happening. OK, a lot happening all at once. What's the setting is at high school? Yes. OK. And it's all about this party. OK, so and I'm there and you're at the party until I'm not OK. Oh, oh, she did. Oh God. Well, OK. You're at the party until you're not. So that was a good teaser right there for you. I will be watching. Yeah. Enough said. Thank you so much for coming on. You're such a little gem. You are a light. I hope you know that. Yeah, you got to believe in yourself a little more. We're gonna I'm Kaitlyn Bristowee. Your session is now ending. And if I'm being honest, I wouldn't mind a rating and review. Sci fi fans, this is your summer Pluto TV Summer of Cinema is bringing you a universe of free sci fi movies to discover new futures with The Matrix and World War Z. Host alien explorers with a rival or beam up to jury the galaxy with Star Trek Beyond the Sun never sets in outer space or on streaming hundreds of free sci fi movies when you download the Pluto TV app now. Pluto TV Summer of Cinema Stream Now they never. 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